Progress

So here we are.

More than half way through January.

I wonder how many people have quit their New Years Resolution.

For my resolution.....

I created quite a list but really it comes down to one goal this year....to be a better person.

I think I'm doing okay.

Books: First off, I have read 3 books so far. 2 of them on the cruise. It was so relaxing to lay on the beach and read. Usually I hate the beach because I get bored so easy. Having the book allowed me to sit there and relax for hours. Loved it!

Loved these books. It's weird, but I could so see myself in each of the main characters.

Especially Darcy in Something Blue. Even though I'm not a shopper like her.

My next book is "love the one you're with" by Emily Giffin as well.

I can't wait to get started with it!

Church: The boys and I went to church on Sunday. I got nothing out of the sermon. I really need to go to a church that has a good priest. Like Father Frank at St. Pius. He relates everything to real like examples and I get so much more out of it. Father Bramlage rambled and rambled......

....for 20 minutes...

yes, I timed it.

Is that wrong?

I don't think so.

I wanted to break out the solitaire game on my phone.

Pretty sure that would have been wrong.

Anyways, half way through the sermon....

.....that would be 10 minutes in...

....Brett leaned over to me and said "What is he talking about? I don't understand."

He's 12.

He should be able to comprehend.

Right?

Right.

Well, that tells you something.

So my response....

 I leaned back over to him and said,

"I have no idea either but if I figure it out, I'll let you know."

I never did.

Next week, we are going to St. Pius!

Working out: define "working out"

lol

Seriously, I went.

Twice.

Hey, how many times have you been?

I think 2 times is pretty good.

More importantly, I did get an email from an old friend offering to work out together. I am excited! If anything, maybe we can run the half-marathon together.

Stop laughing.

Actually, only my blog readers....

.....all 3 of them....

know my goal of running a half-marathon.

This year.

I don't want to post anything about it on facebook or tell anyone because if I fail...

....which is possible....

I don't want anyone to laugh, rool their eyes or say I told ya so.

So it's our little secret.

Sleep with no TV: Doing pretty good with this one! When Jared sleeps with me....

....about once a week....

he has a hard time with it and I usually give in and turn it on.

There is a reason though.

A good reason.

Check that.

A VERY good reason....

It drowns out his snoring.

Oh my.

Wow.

So 6 out of 7 days, no tv on at night...yeah!!!

Less TV: Well, I am sitting here watching American Idol.

Sooooo.....

can we just come back to this one at a later time?

K.

Thanks!

Okay, I think that's it for now. Hope you're having a fabulous January!!!

25 random things about me

So this is harder than it looks but here goes!!!

25 random things about me

1. My favorite movies are Grease, Dirty Dancing and Titanic.
2. I hardly ever have to shave my legs.
3. When I eat gummy bears, I eat the head first.
4. I was the only child out of my 5 siblings that my mom and dad "planned". Mom even told me the story once, "It was a Saturday morning...." and I stopped her there :)
5. I want to karaoke so bad but I know I'll suck so I won't try it.
6. The only food I really don't like is goat cheese and okra.
7. The most sensual, sexy, and attractive part of a man’s body? The smile. I love a guy that can make me laugh.
8. I hate coffee but on most mornings, I wished I liked it.
9. I don't think I will ever get a tattoo. My tattoo eyeliner doesn't count :)
10. I started wearing glasses in the 3rd grade....until.......Lasik eye surgery! It was one of the best things I have ever done. Should have got it done alot sooner than I did.
11. I want to be able to dance. I see lessons in my future.
12. Alot of the times I find myself asking, "what if..."
13. I do miss some aspects of other times and places in my life, but overall there is more kindness and caring and love and meaning in my life now than ever before.
14. Thinks the secret to a good marriage is having great "in-laws"!
15. I want to write a book. But not just any book.....I want to be a best-selling author.
16. I don't wear perfume. I actually get turned off when I smell cologne on a man. Love a good smelling man but prefer just clean smelling skin.
17. If someone asks me to pick a number between 1 and 10, I always choose 3 because I have 3 boys.
18. I won't buy anything unless it's on sale. Drives my kids nuts.
19. I have to use Tide laundry detergent.
20. Clean sheets are a secret addiction of mine. I really wish there was a way I have freshly cleaned sheets on my bed every day.
21. Fire is my greatest fear. (besides anything dealing with death of course) I don't know what I would do if I ever lost all my scrapbooks and photos in a fire.
22. I constantly wonder what my daughter would be like if I had one....
23. I am a sports fan because of my father. I wouldn't change it for anything. I hate smoking because of my mother. I wouldn't change it for anything.
24. The chore I hate the worst....ironing!
25. I have never broken a bone.....knock on wood.
26. I have a hard time saying the word specific.
27. One of my greatest memories growing up with my youngest sister Crystal was creating dance routines and singing to Mickey Mouse club songs. I think I was destined to be a Disney fan.
28. I hate following rules. That's why I did 28 things :)


Okay, so that wasn't as hard as I thought :)

And we're off!!!

So excited to be taking our 2nd Disney cruise. This time it will be on the Disney Magic. What a magical way to start the new year!!!

 I am hoping for lots of relaxation!!! We leave in a few minutes for the airport, staying in Cape Canaveral for 2 nights and then boarding the ship on Monday!

Special thanks to my sister Melissa for watching after the boys. I am going to miss the boys so much! Mis, give them hugs and kisses for me! :)

No matter how you are starting off your new year, I hope its a great one!!!

last day of 2010

So here it is the last day of 2010....all ready!
Here it is 2:55 am and I have yet to get to bed. When I am pissed off I can't sleep.
It is times like right now when I miss my best friend.
It is times like right now where I could call her to vent.
But I can't.
I wish I could call heaven.
But I can't.
So instead I am sitting here using my blog to vent. Maybe I will be able to sleep after this. I am not one to air out my dirty laundry so I won't.
I can't.

Since it is the last day of the year, maybe I will reflect on this past year and look forward to the new year.

2010 brought me....

• Took my first ever cruise. I loved it and want to take future cruises. I love that it is a floating resort.
• Registered to become a foster parent. It'll never happen. Not as long as I am with Jared. All we have to do attend the classes. But we won't. I resent that and it'll be a regret that I will have one day.
• Came clean to Jared that I cheated on him back in 2006. It was one time. It wasn't even sex. I just couldn't handle the guilt any longer. I felt so bad for hurting him. Felt....past tense. It's nights like tonight that I remember why I did it.
• Stuff. I recently came to the realization that I have too much "stuff". Things I don't need. Things that add no value to my life. This will lead to one of my New Years resolutions to purge!
• Books. I used to hate to read. I mean hate to read. This year I picked up a book for the first time. I have read 6 books this year and ya know what? I liked it.
• Scrapbooking. I continue to scrapbook and I still love it. I love preserving the stories. The memories. The reasons why I continue to live.
• Alcohol. I'm not proud of this but it is part of this year. For a long time after Lynnette's death, I couldn't touch it. I live with an alcoholic. I hate it. But I became stressed out and had a drink one night. It calmed me down. It made me feel better. That's how it starts.....with one drink. As much as I hate that...it has shown me how easy it was for Lynn to become sick so fast.
• 3 wonderful boys. They are the light of my life. The reason I live. I would do anything for them and I am so proud of the young men they are becoming. Motherhood is the greatest blessing and I thank God everyday for the opportunity.

2011 will bring me....

• well since I mentioned it earlier, less clutter. Maybe I will look into selling things on E-bay. I can then save that money for another cruise :)
• Organize. If I have less stuff, I think I will become more organized. It's not that I am unorganized now, I am but I hate having a pile of mail sitting in the dining room. I hate having a junk drawer.
• More books....I want to continue to read which also means.....
• Less TV. Do I really care what happens on Amazing Race? Survivor? I mean seriously, it's not a positive influence on my life. If its not a positive influence, get rid of it.
• I need to find a way to relax in the evening without having a drink. I think a quiet spot in my bedroom will do the trick. I so miss having quiet time. Just for me.  I hate sleeping with the TV on so.....
• I will not sleep with the TV on. I mean, I don't have to now but its more of a habit. IF Jared sleeps with me, yes IF, he HAS to have the TV on. I hate that. It's going off. If he doesn't like it, he can go sleep on the couch where he normally is anyway.
• Jared. Something has to change. That's all I can say on a public blog.
• Me. Something has to change. Self- respect. Self-confidence. Something has to change. Something besides the obvious physical appearance. But I do want to....
• Run a marathon. Stop laughing. Seriously, its on my bucket list. I know it won't happen in 2011 but maybe a half-marathon? I said stop laughing. After the cruise, I am going to get back to the gym and get back in shape. I WILL lose 25 pounds in 2011. I just have to have.......
• Faith. Faith in myself and spiritual faith. I need to take the boys to church every Sunday. There is no excuse for this. Only laziness. It is my responsibility to make sure they make it to heaven. How are they suppose to do that without having a stronger faith....
• Happy. My smile that everyone loves for some reason....I want to feel that smile on the inside too. I think it can happen if I make the changes I want to make so.....

HERE'S TO THE NEW YEAR!!!! Bring on 2011!!!!
there is a better person waiting inside of you....
what are you waiting for...
people are counting on you.....
there are changes to be made....



Maybe you can't.
BUT I CAN.

Christmas

My sweet great-nephew on Christmas Day!!!

He can't talk but I know he had a great first Christmas!

It seems like just yesterday that my boys were celebrating their first Christmas. They are getting big, way too fast. This year they woke us up at 4:46am to open presents. Before presents we had to take some Christmas morning PJ pictures.

Here I am with my boys (at approx 4:50am.....YAWN!!!!!)

Hope you had a good Christmas, I know we did!

More Facebook crap

So this number game is going on over on Facebook.

I'm not going to lie....it's really annoying.

I mean REALLY annoying.

You send people a number in their inbox and they will post something on their wall with that number, so only you know its about you. I sent some people my number and this is what they are saying....

April Sunny Ramsey-Holtzclaw ‎#1674- Woman, you are a nut, and I absolutely LOVE that about you! You are open and honest (both things that I admire) while keeping your belief in magic – a true feat these days. I feel so blessed to know you!


Susanne Warner #‎1674: you took Crystal and I to kings island w/ some dude in a buick and jammmmmed to up where we belong and that song where it goes, people say we're crazy, what do they know?, maybe we can make it if we're heart to heart, or something like that...hahaaa. I thought u were real cool bc u were older. then we lost touch until recently, and its nice to be back n touch with u, ur like part of our family now. :)
 
Tanesha Blankenship ‎1674--A fun spirit who knows how to hide the naughty behind professionalism! I have a lot to learn!!! :)


Chad Christopher Michael McDevitt #‎1674 definitly a freak!!, but i wouldn't want to have it any other way lol. have known ya for almost 10 years now and i should have known from the get go how you'd be haha, it's funny seeing the 2 sides of you that i see....from on here involving your family stuff, and then the other side of your personality....the true you side lol but both are enjoyable and we definitly have some good convos
 
Porsha Thompson ‎#1674 kick ass last name personality to match bcuz yu dnt tke no shit!

Shane Marquis ‎1674: I'm glad I got to learn what I had to learn from you. You managed to take a subject that isn't fun at all and you made it fun to learn with the great sense of humor and energy you brought to the classroom. I wasn't expecting to have fun and make a lot of good memories at that place. So this is me saying damn you for making it s...o fun! Once reality hit and we had to go to work, I wanted to become an alcoholic!.......Hahaha..Seriously though, I think you're a great person and I'm glad we met and still keep in touch here on Fb.

Ami Carpenter ‎# 1674- I just recently met you. You seem well grounded and I like that about you. When someone says something that makes no sense your face expressions crack me up. Your really outgoing and I feel I can trust you with anything. Thanks for being there though my little mental breakdown last week and being so understanding. I hope I still see you after Friday! It's not going to be the same without you there!

 
Okay, it's annoying to read all the other numbers but I have to admit, it was fun finding my number and seeing what they said about me.
 
And this my friends, is reason number 1674 why I am addicted to the internet!!!

$*&# my mom says!!!

I just got back from spending 4 magical days in WDW with my mom last week.


Here we are on the plane. So excited to leave!

On the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad....

In France with a delicious drink....

In Italy....

Mickey's handprints at Planet Hollywood...

So my point of this post is to keep track of my facebook status updates from the trip. My sister Crystal said I should have made a journal but since that won't happen, I still wanted to keep track of the posts here.

So in order, here they are.

Just landed after having a delay in Indy because of storms. A baby whined the whole time and the lady beside me had her shirt inside out and kept popping her gum. I finally asked mom to stop....

Just met the princesses and mom didn't even know who they were. I think that qualifies for park eviction.




Mom and I were talking about Disney Cruise Line. She was shocked when I told her we went to the Bahamas so I said where did you think it went. She said "here" (as in WDW) ummm....nearest ocean is 2 hrs away...



Happy birthday to my brother Randy! My mom just said she always feels like crap on her kids birthdays because she thinks her body goes through the labor process again. Yep, 47 yrs later.


Mom just looked at the palm of her hand and asked me which one is the life line. I said I didn't know. She said someone once told her she was going to live until she's 91. Hope so...who would we smile at?


I just made a pressed penny and mom said make sure u don't spend it.


Omg. We are in UK and they have a store full of Beatles stuff and mom says I thought the Beatles were from London.


mom just started to say something and she said instead "never mind, it'll end up on Facebook"
 

Mom "do you have to go potty"
Me "no"
Mom "when did you go?"
Me "back there"
Mom "where?"
...Me "does it really matter? I don't have to go POTTY!" Geez :)



We are eating dinner in Mexico and are so stuffed we can't finish everything so mom says "my dogs wouldn't be very happy with me right now"


We slept in today, so I handed mom the remote and told her to find Regis and Kelly. She does but I see it go from channel 9 to channel 10 back to channel 9, back to 10...this goes on about 8 times when I finally say do you realize you are on the same channels? Her reply "nuh eh, I'm hitting the down bu ...uhh, no I'm n...ot, I was hitting the previous channel button."


bought a big bag of my favorite jelly bellies last night, sizzling cinnamon. I had a few laying out to eat this morning and mom says "do you want a swig of this diet coke to take your pills?" Me: "What pills? Those are my jelly beans" "oh" she says.


Omg she is rubbing off on me! I just had a Bertie moment ....I was looking everywhere for the lid to my cup and it was in my hand!!!


We are eating creamed brulee, which is delicious, and mom says "would you be embarrassed if I licked this dish clean" ......"ummm, at this point, nope!"


Now I know why mom gets lost. She pays attention to people all around her while I pay attention to the landmarks, buildings and things that don't change.


Definition of TMI: your mom telling you its been 6 years since she has made whoopie.


So today when I was at the pool, mom decides to join me so and I see her walking towards me but she doesn't see me. She is squinting, looking all around for me when I am 5 feet from her. So I say to her "ma'am, are you looking for someone?" And she replies "Christina" and I say "I'm right here"......"oh" she replies. ...So I wonder if a random person would've known who Christina was :)


so mom's Yahtzee game broke and she had to throw it away this morning. We got back to the room right now and she got it back out of the garbage to see if it works yet. This place is magical but not that magical.


My mom doesn't know a stranger. She talks to everyone around her. The other night when we were in line for the princesses, she was bent over talking to a chatty 6 year old girl about her first trip here. As mom was in full sentence, the girl interrupts mom to say "you just spit on me".


Mom says nothing is funny today because we have to go home tonight.


I just volunteered us for exit row seats. Mom asked what that means so I told her. She doesn't believe me so I told her I wouldn't joke about that. Actually with every question of hers that I answer, she never believes me. She said its because of her joke-sters son in laws. Gee thanks.



some of my favorite comments....
 
Brittany Elizabeth said: ok so Im wasting time in between my classes, so I start reading all your statuses about Grandma..and I LOLed for real and all the people around me gave me a weird look. Love you guys! have fun!
 
Deena Miller Gindling said: I don't know your mom but have enjoyed your posts today...its so neat you guys are having this time together!

Rebecca Retzner Wilhelm said: your posts are cracking me up.. I have actually been reading my favorites out loud in the office.. how many more days? thanks for all the LOLs.. :)

Jenny Gindling said:  It sounds like you two really enjoyed your trip! I wish I could have done something like this with my mom. I really miss her. Treasure your time together!

Anne Johnson said:  You need to take your mom on more trips, this has been very entertaining!

Marcia Boles Bauman said:  You have got to STOP it! You are killing me with these. I think they should rename that sitcom "S*#T my mom says...."

Melissa Bauman said:  Love her too......but ya know what makes it all the more funny, half the times she has no idea why we laugh at the things she says! lol

April Sunny Ramsey-Holtzclaw said: roflmao! Your Mom sounds like she may be akin to Rose from Golden Girls.... does she ever tell stories about things with names you couldn't spell if you had to? ;)



Okay....I think that should be a good starter for my journal. Whatcha think?